HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF?!

Seating at my cold desk, unfocused and anxious to escape the weariness that these bland beige walls were exulting, Professor clearly spoke a few words that caught my interest; the interest I thought had fled my mind the moment I entered Art History class today. She was telling about the decline of the Roman Empire, an empire that reigned for hundreds of years and ultimately destroyed itself. "An overlay of order with no individuality" is what she referred to it as. Woah, for some strange reason that sparked a nerve in me that insisted I listen on.

The late emperors were all about total control and were militarized to the maximum! Everything and everyone was kept protected, tight and uniform.
What kind of society is that?! No wonder the empire came crashing down! It is impossible to restrain people of their freedom and individuality!

This might be a giant leap, but the moment she emphasized their failure was the moment it hit me that this country could possibly be heading in the same direction, excpet this time around on a more subliminal level.
I mean, isn't it funny how the media can persuade just about anyone to do just about anything? We've seen them praise a certain look, or scrutinize a certain trend, and without question, the majority of our peers follow their lead.
What do you think they are doing to us? They are taking away our uniqueness; those qualities that make us exceptional are criticized everyday and the sad truth is that many of us allow them to pick us apart and put us back together their way.

You might not agree, but then again you might not understand me. Society has become such a complex set of rules, it's almost impossible to just be because there is always something being expected from you.
Subtle, but an overlay of order to be exact.

Question those who represent you, dare to be different and step out of those boxes that conformists insist you remain in. This is your life not theirs... the moment you realize that, will be the moment we gain an advantage.
Because right about now they are winning. And we saw what happenend in Rome when the greedy rulers won... everybody ultimately lost.

THINK ABOUT IT.

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I don't trust myself with loving you

I met him in the midst of insecurity and doubt. He was so pure, so real and so right. At the time it didn't even cross my mind that he might be the one to hold me tight. Now it's going on a year and my feelings aren't translating too clear. I should want what I have, instead I want what I don't. I pray to be loved the way that he loves me, but my shallow heart does not accept it from him. What am I possibly looking for? From who else do I want it more? I'm rejecting him for someone who isn't there and comparing him to someone who used to be. He isn't the boy I pictured would sweep me off my feet, but no one else can make me this happy.

I won't love him, because I don't trust myself with loving him.

In Vanity the Wide Road is Insanity.

Everything else is damned, let them with ears understand!
<3

CHANGE;

First and foremost, it will find you and there is no escaping it. Even as much as you may want to because of how much you might be afraid of it. But you have to Face your Fear. I read a book today that explained why most of us hide behind our fears, and the one universal answer to that question is because we are all terrified of Rejection. Terrified! We would rather conform and blend into the norms of society than face strange looks from strangers for showing our uniqueness. It's a crying shame how much potential the human race bares but does not dare to share. Maybe, if we all committed to be ourselves 100%, then the world would be a better place. I honestly believe that. I am no philosopher, guru, or any kind of teacher; I too am in the process of learning and changing. It takes time. But what I've learned is that you Need to open your mind. Open it wide because there is so much more than you will ever know. And once you start learning different things, you begin learn about different parts of yourself. Think of knowledge as Food for Thought. That thought then turns into wonder, that wonder will lead to curiosity, and finally that curiosity will lead to a Want to change. Change isn't a bad thing. Change, other than death, is the only certainty in this beautiful life. With change comes growth, insight and wisdom. Then you can share your wisdom and Change the World. When you realize that, you can understand and appreciate the beauty of the human race; that only WE have the ability to do that!

The Jump Off.

After a crazy year, what have I learned?!

Well, that is definitely not so easy to answer. I've learned about heartache; first and foremost. I must admit, I was very naive about it. Those who have been through it are much stronger than those who have not. Letting go and putting it in God's hands is the hardest thing a person can do; because we always have our memories that haunt us and encourage us to try and fix it. But what do you do when you have tried every way, from every angle and yet continuously fail? You have to give up because it becomes exhausting. And technically, it is not giving up, it is moving on. Giving up would only be if you did not try your hardest. So, you move on and HOPE that God has a bigger/better plan for you. And whenever those beautiful memories appear in your mind you acknowledge them and thank God that he blessed you with such good times. While keeping in mind that the future is a mystery, and you don't know how many even greater memories are to come. I've learned that we hold on to the past because we FEAR CHANGE We fear that we will not live up to the person that we are supposed to be; meaning that we are afraid we can not live up to our fullest potential. But you know what is so ironic about all of that? Is that we are the strongest when we are at our weakest point. For instance, I fear letting go; I fear heartbreak; I fear change; I fear being honest and admitting to all of my past mistakes; but deep down inside I know that the only way I will change and tear away from that fear is if I face all these problems head first! It is just like that quote, "Once you hit rock bottom, there is no where to go but up". I've learned that God is great. When I lost sight of my faith, i lost sight of everything. I lost sight of my goals and I lost sight of myself. My religion is a weird one, but I understand it completely. God is Love. God is energy. God is in the middle of everything holding it all together like glue. I have to believe that he is always there for me or else I will get lost. My previous relationship did not last because we got lost. There was no foundation. It was not based on anything, except lust. We were two lost souls who found comfort in each other and from there on became even more lost. There was no honesty, no truth, no depth. It was all on the surface, and eventually what is on the surface will fade. The one thing I regret most, is not being REAL with him; which in return just means that I was not being REAL with MYSELF.I PROMISE MYSELF THAT I WILL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN. My spirit now is too strong and God is the core of my spirit. God is the truth, remember. From now on everyone I meet will learn this about me. The same scenario applies to my family. Over the past few years I have hidden behind lies. Lies on top of lies, on top of lies. So many damn lies I can only remember my most recent. I never felt like they would understand me and I would get so angry when they didn't. I was acting so stubborn! I never even gave them the chance to understand me, so how can I have expected them to?! I've learned that Truth is so very important. SO IMPORTANT. Lies weigh you down, even the tiniest. Now, I can't sit here and say that I will never lie again, because then I'll just be lying to myself. But, I can promise that I will never stoop to that level of lying ever again. There is just no way that I will allow it.

Therefore, with all of that said and done, I asked myself... "Why do I want to start jusB?" Because I want to share all of my experiences with the world, and I want to show how I overcome the hard times and make a new, brighter day out of them. Many times I believe people act out of anger (and fear). The decisions we make are not wise, but foolish. And therefore the consequences are severe. Then, everything just gets worse. We lose hope, lose God and lose sight of all the potential we had in our self; well, have because majority of the time it is not too late. Everyone has something to contribute to society, and I want to be the person to bring those contributions to light! I honestly think (and believe) that my words are powerful. But people can not just read them, they have to act on them. And what make my words special is that I am writing to you as I learn for myself. It's like a hands-on guide, ya know? I would never write about something I do not know to be true because I have not been through it yet; or I just do not one hundred percent truly believe. Remember what I said earlier, I'm done with lies. I think my peers, you guys, would appreciate this because you can all relate.

So, in conclusion, this is me. Just Brittny.

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